Do you know Ive been on this forum since the start, posted, contributed to posts etc but never actually written a blog so here goes!!
Well all in all this part has taken nearly 2 months.. 2 ultrasounds, me refusing to have the second one before enjoying my holidays didnt help, and lots of falling out with doctors "admin" !!
Keeping it short, as those that know me know I tend to go on a bit.... and on...and on ;0) my ultrasound results are seemigly "fine". This was left as a garbled message on my mobile and as "they" are on holiday I cant call back. Seemingly the results will be with my gp in about 3 weeks.
OK OK I should be delighted the cancer hasnt spread. Thats what "fine" means isnt it ? Or is it ? You get my drift? I think all of us who are touched by cancer will always feel scared and need the reassurance not just a 3 second answering machine message.
Anyway been thinking about it all today, feeling a bit low etc etc then thought no lesley "fine" is brilliant news!
Picked girls up from school.....more than just "fine". Laughed with them......"fine" is now wonderful.
Going out with my wee cancer buddy from original diagnosis tonight for dinner......fan bliddy tastic - we both beat the bliddy thing!
Guess what Im trying to say apart from clear my head is that Im more than "fine" and my life is more than "fine". Im alive, I have such a wonderful support group of friends and family and here of course ;0) And having that makes me realise I can deal with anything thats thrown at me.
Enjoy it friends because as we know it can be so short and taken away at a moments notice.
Lesley ;0) xxxx
PS Wont be making a habit of a blog (not intending to bore you too often..... hears sighs of relief all round....yes Lanzy I heard it!!!)just a wee thankyou to all the good friends I have made on here and who have been brill this last while even when Ive been a moddy bugger!! xxxxxxxxxx
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.. so glad that you are "fine" and hope that you may long continue to be just "fine".
Have fun tonight, but don't drink too much honey, or you won't be feeling "fine" tomorrow!!
Ohhh Im pleased for you Les, I hope you go out and have a fabby time with your buddy - but steer clear of pink champagne!! Seriously i know the waiting has been agony - i dont know how you did it - phew huge sigs of relief! Best wishes, love and hugs ,Jools x
Hi Lesley - I quite agree with you - 3 minutes does NOT do justice to such wonderful news. Yes also, to your observation about us feeling scared and neeeding to be reassured at times. It's the nature of the beast, I guess. Our brains sometimes take a little extra time to process good news - especially when, like with us, it has become accustomed to listening to and absorbing bad news, be it postponement of treatments due to low blood counts, or the million and one other disappointing things that can happen to us. I think your brain has just realised what FANTASTIC news it has been fed - and I'm truly delighted for you. Try not to ponder and fret too much, but I DO understand what you mean about us maybe always living with a touch of fear. NOW is the time for you to laugh and enjoy being with those you love and who love you. It's WONDERFUL news sweetheart, and hope you have a fan bliddy tastic time with your wee cancer buddy. Lots of love from kate xxxx
Yes, it's hard when it comes as such an anti-climax - just a few words on an answerphone which might be referring to the weather (well, ok, not this summer's). What we imagine with some news of this significance is fanfares, parting clouds, rainbows, a procession.... However all you get is us lot saying WE'RE VERY VERY HAPPY FOR YOU! Lots of love xxxx Penny
