The word "fine"

Do you know Ive been on this forum since the start, posted, contributed to posts etc but never actually written a blog so here goes!! Well all in all this part has taken nearly 2 months.. 2 ultrasounds, me refusing to have the second one before enjoying my holidays didnt help, and lots of falling out with doctors "admin" !! Keeping it short, as those that know me know I tend to go on a bit.... and on...and on ;0) my ultrasound results are seemigly "fine". This was left as a garbled message on my mobile and as "they" are on holiday I cant call back. Seemingly the results will be with my gp in about 3 weeks. OK OK I should be delighted the cancer hasnt spread. Thats what "fine" means isnt it ? Or is it ? You get my drift? I think all of us who are touched by cancer will always feel scared and need the reassurance not just a 3 second answering machine message. Anyway been thinking about it all today, feeling a bit low etc etc then thought no lesley "fine" is brilliant news! Picked girls up from school.....more than just "fine". Laughed with them......"fine" is now wonderful. Going out with my wee cancer buddy from original diagnosis tonight for dinner......fan bliddy tastic - we both beat the bliddy thing! Guess what Im trying to say apart from clear my head is that Im more than "fine" and my life is more than "fine". Im alive, I have such a wonderful support group of friends and family and here of course ;0) And having that makes me realise I can deal with anything thats thrown at me. Enjoy it friends because as we know it can be so short and taken away at a moments notice. Lesley ;0) xxxx PS Wont be making a habit of a blog (not intending to bore you too often..... hears sighs of relief all round....yes Lanzy I heard it!!!)just a wee thankyou to all the good friends I have made on here and who have been brill this last while even when Ive been a moddy bugger!! xxxxxxxxxx