Everyday is a roller coaster now. Sunday ed didnt know what to do with himself, bed, chair, bed , chair. We had little chats about funeral and stuff, tears and cuddles but i thought at least he is coming to terms a bit with the situation. Today he fired up and made it to hospital app. He continues with chemo on Wednesday! I dont know if Im coming or going. At least I took the chemo tablets back to show he hadnt taken them but the oncologist said he would proceed with herceptin and no tablets if Ed wanted. Ed wanted! So we shall see how that goes. When we got home Ed went straight to bed and i write this. Where we shall find the strength to carry on I just dont know. Ed is up every 2 hours or even 50 minutes during the night. Even a sleeping tablet didnt work last night. Whatever he has should be identified and bottled! Less than 7 stone , how does he do it? I wish I had his stamina. Watch this space........ Love to everyone, may you have a good day, love leisha xxx
