Goodnight sweetheart

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Today at 2.40pm my beloved Ed passed away. It was so so peaceful and painfree that i feel happy for him. He had had enough and just couldnt fight anymore. Ed had been unable to communicate for 4 days, not even squeeze my hand but the last words he heard were me telling him I loved him and me kissing him and he just went with a sigh. Somehow I will carry on but the worst part was leaving him at the Hospice when I just wanted to bring him home with me. Our son didnt make it but has many memories and seems to accept it. It was only me and Ed and a nurse at the final moments and i will treasure those moments forever. Love and peace to all my friends out there and to any newcomers, I will never be afraid of death after today and hope it helps others to overcome their fears. love leisha xxxx

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  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Leisha, so sorry for your loss.Thinking of you and your family, Val X

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    So sorry leisha

    I am glad it was peaceful. Although he could not physically come home with you his "soul" did and will be with you forever. Take care of yourself, for him if nothing else at this really difficult time.

    T

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Dear Leisha, i am sorry for your loss but i am glad that it was peaceful. You are the most amazing couple with your love for each other which shows in everything that you write.

    Love Kaz x

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Hi Leisha, so sorry to hear that Ed lost his battle.  I was in the same place as you just over a month ago and I know how you are feeling.

    But be assured, you did all you could for Ed, and as time goes by you will probably have regrets about what you could or could not have done, I know, I did.  But at the end of the day you must remember you did all you possibly could to make his passing as comfortable as it could be.  This terrible illness takes away so many good people and it is out of our hands.  

    But be strong Leisha, remember the good times and that might help you over the bad ones.

    And remember, you might have left his body in the hospice, but his presence will always be with you, around you and in your heart.

    He has gone now, but you have still got to get through this, so be selfish and do what you need to do to get through.  Take one step at a time.  One day at a time and if you find one day hard, then just take one hour at a time.  And as I have been told many times, you have got to keep swimming.

    Take care Leisha

    My prayers are with you

    Pam xx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Hi Leisha.  My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.  I am so pleased that Ed passed away peacefully and that you were with him.  I understand what you mean about not fearing death as I feel the same, having been with my mum.  God Bless.  Caroline XX