Eds birthday today. We went to sons yesterday for lunch but Ed couldnt eat anything, still we were out together for a change and the weather was good . Still waiting for app for scan results but I think we both know it wont be good, cant even bring myself to chase up appointment, just focussing on the wedding on Saturday. This time next week it will all be over. I just want Ed to be there and all the family , not just our sons but Eds brothers and sisters, and friends from way back.
