just thoughts

I cried today , I dont know why perhaps because I dont want to die I feel for you people that suffer too do we deserve what we got through? perhaps its to prepare us for some other life But I dont want to go ,and leave my wife I love her too much to leave her some day but I do find it hard to learn how to pray you see Im a man who can and who will go forward and conquer , I know I can still I cant entertain the thought of not being here never to have again , my Saturday night beer! never to be with the people I adore I dont want to know what may be in store well, maybe Im saying just what others think so enjoy and keep smiling and ,be in the pink!