Kezzerbird....not my normal self at the mo

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I don't often moan or winge on here but at the moment I am worried and I just need to put it down, I don't want to say anything to my family just yet. I have a lump which I found last night near to where my right ovary used to be. When I was diagnosed with Ovarian cancer in March of 2008, the cancer and massed on the muscle wall close to the ovary and after many cock ups by the hospital, with 3 months the cancer had filled my womb, bowel, stomach and ormentum, so I had 5 cancer to fight off, which I did, much to the amazement of my medical team who expected me to die. After a wonderful year in remission the cancer returned in my stomach, it was expected and I knew that, I know what my out come will be and have accepted that. Once again cock ups are happening, my treatment has gone to pot, it should have been over and done with many weeks ago and I should have also had my scan and the results back but on Friday I am geeting chemo 4 out of the six. Now this lump has appeared and I am thinking that do I have to pay the price again as before because things weren't done as they should have. It was my instinct that told me my cancer was back and I was right other wise I would never have known what was going on. I now have to demand a CT scan to see if my cancer has spread yet again and if it has S**T will hit the fan, my cancer was very aggressive last time and they knew that, I can fight the cancer but I shouldn't have to fight my medical team too, I have given this bloody desease a run for its money and will continue to do so and I know it will get me in the end but all I am trying to do is survive that bit longer, I have only just started to live my life, so it can sod off. I just needed to get this out guys, will see my Onc tomorrow and will have to take it from there. ...Love and hugs to those that want them as always....Carol x

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  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Babe

    Oh my thoughts and love are with you. I know you wont but DO NOT give up the fight. Any more problems with your medical team and I will join the lynch mob to sort them out!

    big love

    Andrew xxx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Hey Carol I don't often post these days but I am sending you the biggest hug I can Thinking of you always

    Love Teri

    (((((((((((((((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))))))))))))))

    XXXXXX

    KEEP FIGHTING

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Thank you Andrew and Teri, I shall never stop fighting cancer, never, your support is all I need to carry on going, where would I be without you guys. Teri...I hope you are doing well, you know what I mean, big hugs back to you love and of course a hug for Andrew xxxx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Carol, you whinge and moan away. Getting things said and off our chests helps us to get our thoughts in order so we can gather the strength we need to kick arse .... and you're the leader of the pack on that front! You're an inspiration and I love your spirit.

    I'm infruriated on your behalf that you're being messed around again though and wish there was something practical I could do to help. As I can't think of anything practical at the moment I'll send you a bucket full of cyber hugs (to go with the tea) and a bottle full of Bad Fairy top secret energy brew to top you up!

    Take care,

    Bad Fairy xx  

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    awww kezzer.... your so right, we are so alike its scary!, i picked up on my cancer returning too, but luckily i have a fantastic onc who listens to me and the team of nurses are great too, like you i know the outcome but am determined to squeeze every bit of life into this body, the words taking it easy and giving up dont even belong in my vocabularyyou shouldnt have to fight with your medical team as well as the cancer... seriously... can you not ask for another doctor... it might mean traveling further but may be worth it in the long run.....good luck kezzer, i look forward to meeting you at leister....

    p.s. i had five tumours in 2008 too told i had 3 to 4 months to live 17 march, mine were secondaries already spread from the breast (1999), but what a coincidence.... well keep fighting together, i wish i could fight your onc team too!!

    liz xxx