Thought i would put on a blog of what is happening with my partner Julian (Jools). As most of you will know, on the 2nd of February he had a heamorrage and was given one hour to live. In true Jools style he wasnt having none of it. He spent two weeks in hospital and amazed the consultants with his survival. He then went into a hospice but so desperately wanted to come home. He got a bit annoyed as the staff ( although brilliant) insisted on talking to him as though he was 90 and he is only 42 with all his faculties. He is now home, as this is where he has chosen to die. We now do not know how long he has got due to him defying the odds. He is still very poorly and had an extremely bad day yesterday. The doctor came in to see him today and she was brilliant. She sat for over an hour with us and talked to us openly and frankly ( such a breath of fresh air ). Yesterday really frightened me as Jools sense of humour had dissappeared. Even when he was "bleeding to death" he was still making silly remarks. Thankfully today the humour has started to creep back in.
I am terrified of what is round the corner. I was even more terrified of the fact that he may start to bleed again at any time. Jools had said to me of when he was " bleeding to death" that it was quite nice really, just a gentle sinking feeling, but no pain. I thought he was just saying that to make me feel better. Talking to the doctor today, she said that was true for the patient, in fact its quite a nice way to go, but horrible for others to watch. Some how her comment has made it all feel not quite so scarey now. Jools has now gone to bed and hopefully he will have a good night sleep.
I just wanted to tell you all of how proud of my partner i am. He really is an amazing guy and i love him with all my heart. I wish things had been different for us, but it just wasnt to be. All i can do for him is be there and keep loving him and supporting his decisions.
Thats all for now folks. Keep smiling, keep laughing its what life is all about. Money....wealth.....bah! keep it, it means nothing. Love and laughter means more.
Love Kathryn xxxxx
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Kathryn these last days and weeks must be so bittersweet for you - how wonderful your Jools is home with you where he wants to be - that has to be some comfort after his stay in hospital. Your GP sounds fantastic. I'm thinking about you both. You have your priorities in the right place - love and laughter are so important - very best wishes and super big hugs J XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
Thanks for updating us Kathryn was wondering how you both were getting on!!! Make sure you get some sleep, look after yourself. Sending you both Love & Laughter
when i first ecounterd you on this site you were really going through a rough times, but you are really doing well, i just hope i cope as well when the time comes.
i must agree with you that when we are going through this money means nothing, ( credit crunch ! thats nothing just a economic cycle )
