Kate2003's blog

Why is it we always want what we can't have. I want my life back, I want my health back, I want my parents back. And I want my chemotherapy back. I dragged myself down to the Royal Berks last Friday, not feeling brilliant, but at least this was chemo number 5 and at last the end was definitely in sight. Shock horror - on arrival, I was sent off to have my bloods redone as they were very low. Yet more waiting around…

I just wanted to thank everyone SO much for all the messages of love and support - I felt so down and depressed last night but you've all cheered me up and I can't thank you enough for your hugs, and for being there when I needed you. Lots of love and ((( hugs ))). Kate xxx

This has been a horrible week and I feel very guilty complaining about it. Everything has just piled up on top of me and I need to get it down on paper or I shall burst into tears and won't be able to stop. It all started when I found out I have now acquired a heart murmur, which explains why I am so breathless. Then last Wednesday when I was in Bath with Maggie, I woke up covered in bruises ... well, I had five! …

Well - I'd been looking forward to it for weeks and it certainly surpassed expectations! Thank you all so much - Caz and Lanz for being fantastic hosts [and what a fabulous garden]; Lell for the music; Jayne for those cocktails; Megan for being my travel companion; Mayte for the MOST delicious food - hope your recipes will all be in Foodies' Corner soon. And the rest of you just for being you and being such good friends…

It's a weird feeling - I was diagnosed in April, but it's only today it's hit me that my life now falls into two neat parts - "Before cancer" and "After cancer". I was sitting at my laptop merrily surfing, when I came across a profile I hadn't checked out. The first thing I noticed - Member since 21 April. Oh, I thought - "That's the day I went into hospital". Another one - member since 28 April. "The day my tumour…