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FormerMember

25 May 2010

my god this isnt happening again...... it cant be

not very long ago i was nursing my beloved Nanna right to the day she died.. cancer finally took her from me from us.. Feb 17th Nanna left this earth to be with Grandad once again.. slowly bit at a time i am healing.. recovering from the pain, letting go of the anger, starting to smile when i think of Nanna instead of crying..

But

As soon as i start to feel better i am kicked down again.. 6 weeks ago my Mum "pulled a muscle" in her back 4 weeks ago it was a "trapped nerve"

In the last week it has gone from a trapped nerve to a secondary cancer on the spine....... and today its become primary lung cancer with secondaries on spine, in liver and in hip...

and just to add insult to injury my Uncle has lung cancer also...

how can this be happening to us again.. why is it happening...

i am numb.. i am feeling nothing.. i cant feel anything.. i daren't

my poor Dad.. His Mum dies of cancer then within a couple of months his Wife and only sibling are both diagnosed with cancer also.

Will someone please tell me how i am supposed to get thru this.. how i am supposed to cope..

i know i sound selfish, after all i havent got to fight this... i am not the one with cancer.. but cancer doesnt just attack and destroy the ones it attacks.....

god i wish someone would make this stop

FormerMember over 14 years ago

Hi manic imp and welcome to the site

Just because you're not suffering personally from cancer doesn't make it any easier to bear because it is happening to someone so close to you. Their pain is your pain and you are bound to hurt too.

I know it's difficult but you must try to be strong and give your family all the love and support you can.

No-one can answer the question of why it happens. I asked that question too when my partner John was diagnosed recently because he has the exact same cancer as my Dad did. It doesn't seem fair but there's nothing we can do about it.

You're probably on an emotional rollercoaster now, just as I was at the beginning. Hold tight sweetheart, if I can do it so can you.

I hope you gain a lot of support from this site. There are some amazing people on here who can often answer questions that you may have on your mind. Pop over to chat - we talk about lots of things on there relating to cancer and its treatment. Sometimes we laugh and sometimes we cry but we are all one big caring family.

Lots of love and *hugs*

Marjorie

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FormerMember over 14 years ago

Hi Maniac imp,

You just got the answer to your question.Marjorie

has given you the best advice anyone could . You stay on this site and we will all try to help in anyway we can,thats what we are here for to help and understand how you are feeling and what help we can give.

You have got to have strength and be positive about

whats ahead for you.Just remember there is always someone here you are never alone.So if you want to just talk let us know.

Take care and be safe Big Hugs Love Sarsfield.xxx
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