Nighmares and Dreamscapes

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I had the night from hell last night, i had the most awful nightmares about this cancer i woke up trembling and sweating.   I couldnt go back to sleep at all and was trying desparately not to wake my partner as he has so much to put up with.  The results of my biopsy are due on Thursday and my imagination is running away with me!  This has been my worst moment so far.  I was sure I could hear my Mum calling my name, i lost her four years ago and today is her birthday.

I did manage to pull myself together things always look better in the daylight,.my daughter came over and took me out, she bought me some lovley sandals, we reminised about Mum and laughed about the things she used to say and the things she used to do.  I think she was with us today , albeit in spirit.

I talk to her frequently and always ask her for the strength to get through this dreaded disease.

Jules xx

 

 

 

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  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Hi Jules, I go for my 6 monthly lung xray on Wed, plus am still waiting for results from colonoscopy. Polyps were found, removed and sent to lab for testing. We all have nightmares, I call 'em Demons, get 'em regularly. I just get up and have a drink and go back to bed. Dont worry about dreams, just your imagination playing tricks on you. I take Tramadol as well, that stuff is a decent painkiller but causes wierd dreams.

    Hugs, Bill xx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Hello Jules,

    I know how you are feeling hun, I have had the weirdest dreams on and off since I was diagnosed with bc 5months ago. Its completely understandable, you are worrying about biopsy and also it being your mums birthday, think all these things that are playing on your mind just release themselves when you sleep, and they all get muddled up.

    I think that sometimes what we try not to think about during the day just comes when we relax and are sleeping, they arent nice but you are not alone hun xxhugsxx  Im glad your daughter took you out and you managed to talk about your mum and laugh about things, it does help to talk, but only if you can do that without getting too upset. Keep thinking positive and we will all get you through this ok hun xxxx some good people on here xxxx love angie xx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    good luck for the results jules

    good luck sarsfield and bill too xx hugs xx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Hello Jules, good luck for Thursday.  I too have found dealing with cancer difficult, suffice to say vino was my crutch as I am weak.  That was in 2007 and I am still here today.  Not so much vino though.  God bless, good luck, I wish you strength.  Ann x

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Thanks Ann for your encouraging words, do you know what i think i might just have a glass or two.......or maybe three of vino this eve LOL

    Jules

    xx