I had the night from hell last night, i had the most awful nightmares about this cancer i woke up trembling and sweating. I couldnt go back to sleep at all and was trying desparately not to wake my partner as he has so much to put up with. The results of my biopsy are due on Thursday and my imagination is running away with me! This has been my worst moment so far. I was sure I could hear my Mum calling my name, i lost her four years ago and today is her birthday.
I did manage to pull myself together things always look better in the daylight,.my daughter came over and took me out, she bought me some lovley sandals, we reminised about Mum and laughed about the things she used to say and the things she used to do. I think she was with us today , albeit in spirit.
I talk to her frequently and always ask her for the strength to get through this dreaded disease.
Jules xx
