Nan has deteriated so scarily quick. She has lost the ability to use one of her arms properly, she can barely speak and refuses to eat or drink properly. We think it's only hours now, not long. I am torn, part of me knows she needs to rest and be free of pain but the other half doesn't want to lose her. I am just waiting for the call with the bad news. I am so scared. My mum is at the hospital and refuses to leave but I can't stay for long without wanting to run out and break down. I visited her earlier and it is so painful watching this. My mum keeps telling her not to fight and go to my dad but she doesn't seem to understand anymore. I don't know what to do.
