When does it stop

Hi all. I had a terrible night last night thinking the worst. 2008 was a shocker of a year for me and hoped that 2009 would come right. I had back surgery last year, a burst peptic ulcer due the long term use of anti Inflammatories. A ruptured spleen that had to be removed due to Sugeons medical misadventure. A hernia that was in the line of fire an had to be done then lastly, Kidney cancer which they found while all this was going on. God i could write a book. 4 Days ago i noticed a lump in my neck which is sitting right on the main artery. GP asked if that is where they put a line in but They didnt. Have ultra sound today at the GP and if it is any thing that concerns him he is sending me for an urgent CT scan. Now i am worried again and hope that it is nothing . Sleep is imposible at the moment as i am a worrier.will keep you all posted on site and keep fingers crossed. I felt this was the best way to tell you by blogging. as sometimes on the site chat room when all is happy i dont like to change the mood for every one with my problems. Well i have got that off my chest and feel a little better.Sometimes i feel a little isolated been in New Zealand. Jill D