painted face!!!

Jen if they are not there for you they aint your friends simple a sthat really.

Totally understand how you feel and where yu are coming from being a single mum i suppose i give of the air of independence and coping to the max but yes sometimes you just want some one to scoop you up and say its all goona be ok.

love

sam

x

Morning Jen, just read this latest by you.  I know as mums we are the mountain of strength for our family but you really could give thema special gift by letting them know you need a hug,  you need their support ad you really do feel vulnerable right now.  Your children will so want to feel important by nurturing you for once.  When you get Weds chemo done, go home, put on your fluffiest pjs and dressing gown and do whatever you want.  If you have to leave a card out saying you need some of the kids medicine right now - that could be just them being quiet, picking up after them, making you a cup of tea or giving you a big fat hug.  Cancer can also give us gifts - like sharing and realising your bonds with your loved ones.  Don't worry about the so called friends turning their back on you - its because they don't know how to react so as they are embarrassed for themselves as they feel  useless, let them get on with it.  But you must address your family and your needs.  You might just be surprised at how your children respond to your vulnerability - help  them feel they are important right now too and your cancer should not be a lonely illness to deal with.  Ann x

thanks everyone for your support ive wakened up from a terrible night coughing sick etc but i dont feel too bad believe it or not guess ive picked up a virus or something but the sun is shining and ive done the h/wrk seen my son off to school and as he went out said good luck mum made my day really still in tears though writing this god where do they all come from thought i wasnt going to do this but im off again havent cried so much all of my life always the hard faced strong single mum battling for my kids and myself and now im a wailing mess not in front of the kids though....... yes i need a big fat cuddle but will need to do without for now ......right wipe your face girl and get on with getting ready make up on and off we go for my results wish me luck guys

take care everyone

love and hugs jen xxxx

Jen,

Good luck for today. Will you settle for a big fat cyber cuddle from a friend maybe ?  bet all your other mates on Mac send theirs too !!

Love aqnd Hugs

J xx

Hi Jen, "tears of a clown" we've all done it, and everyone has different views on it, I try to protect the ones I love from as much pain as possible, but they all still know when I'm anxious, etc..... Why? Cos they love me and go through it with me, the friends you have lost, aren't really friends at all, so you really havent lost anyone, because the people who really love and care for you are still around, it's hard for those around us, sometimes I really do think it CAN be worse, they feel so useless, I often find myself consoling some one when it should be the other way around.....

Also, there isn't one person on this site who doesn't feel like you when waiting for results, if they say otherwise then I think they tell porky pies lol..... I'm quite a strong person, and hide my fears quite well (so I thought) but my sisters informed me I get grumpy, tetchy, and subconsciously rub my ribs as I get near my three monthly scan, (who me???)

I hope it's all good for you..... Chemo, really is your friend, and can possibly save your life

LIZ xxxxxxx