dont waste a second!!!

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FormerMember

28 Feb 2011

just sitting here on my laptop and different thoughts going through my head ........funny old life aint it.......and how it can all change in a heartbeat!!!!

this time last year i was looking forward to going on holiday to turkey head full of what i had to buy clothes wise etc etc you know the kind of things just every day life as a single parent my whole life was circled round juggling the finances and making sure my kids were ok and working part time!!!!

nowadays is so different my whole life is circled round me being ill!!!

im always conscious about my next chemo looming up i have never been ill in my life yes suffered the normal colds flus but always battled on through it and then wham this!!!

so what i am really trying to say to everyone is never leave things till tomorrow dont put off going to the doctor even if you feel youre troubling them for something minute!!! i went into hospital with what i thought was the flu turned out i had septaecemia (where i got that god only knows) but i was very ill and a routine scan picked up the secondaries on my liver !!!????

without being in hospital id have soldiered on disregarding the usual aches and pains and putting them down to getting older now i know that the dull ache under my ribs every so often wasnt just that so im one of the lucky ones who was diagnosed earlier rather than later you know your own body so if it doesnt feel right deal with it keep on at the docs till he sends you for further tests and never take no for an answer

life is precious every single second of it so live life to the full!!!

sorry for being so miserable today think im longing for the sunshine makes you feel so much more alive so think i will walk up to the churchyard the snowdrops and crocus are all out and its so lovely just a pure carpet of yellow purple and white everywhere makes you realise your lucky to be here and i intend to for a very long time may i add!!!

love and hugs to everyone hope you all have a great day !!!!

jenxxx

FormerMember over 13 years ago

Hi Jen, just read your previous post too, and I don't blame you for being raging - what with all the shops now catering for Sunday shoppers, why can't the medical profession also realise that not everything stops on weekends!

I agree with you about not putting things off. It tortures me sometimes when I think 'If only I hadn't allowed myself to be fobbed off by my GP when I had pains in my side for months and months - if only I'd insisted on a referral earlier - maybe they would have caught it before it spread' but it makes me go mad thinking that way. And even now I find myself thinking silly things like 'I won't wear that now, I'll save it for best' Well now is best!

It's a miserable day today, drizzly and windy, but I hope you feel bit better soon. How's the sickness today? Love Jeanie x
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FormerMember over 13 years ago

I never had any symptoms until a month before diagnosis so I can't do the "what if I had gone earlier" thing but it had spread from my bowel to the liver and lungs. I never even felt ill for 1 minute, still haven't been ill in 2 and a half years but just getting breathless. This is reminding me that NOW is the time to do things whilst I still can. It does make me feel sad knowing that i did all the treatment and I am still facing a short future.enjoy wearing your best clothes!

Love Jen XX

Live for today, enjoy the crocuses,
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FormerMember over 13 years ago

aw jenn great post. dundee is cold but sunny and i've washed towels,bedding and curtains and hung them out to as i love fresh air washing. i'm taking advice from you all and if i want to wear jammies i will but if i want to dress up and sit around i will do too. jeanie - i never felt ill either but boy am i gonna enjoy and appreciate what i have now.

love and peace tracey xxx
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FormerMember over 13 years ago

Hi Jen,

Why are you sitting on your laptop.? LoL. If I hadnt of gone to the Dr the day after I started coughing up Blood. I can assure you I wouldnt be sitting on my P.C. today. If I feel something isnt right its on to the

Surgery, and my Dr will be here the same day. You are right dont put off today,what you can do tomorrow. Look after yourself.

Take care and be safe Big Hugs Love Sarsfield.xx
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FormerMember over 13 years ago

Hi Jen,

I agree that you should make the most of every day as life is indeed precious. I didn't have any symptoms until my cancer was already advanced, but I am still here four years later,feeling well and enjoying my life. Would like some warmer weather though!

Take care and hope the sickness is under control.

Love and hugs,

lizzie xx
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