today is the 5th day after my first chemo and i feel rough today somehow bit sick and just weird and very tired although im not sleeping at all well seem to be hyper during the night though think im over the worst for now well hope i am ........anyways apart from the really bad sore arm i had for 2 days and the awful tiredness that i felt on friday but its the spaced out feeling i find so difficult to put up with now is this normal ??....cos i dont know whats normal and whats not normal had the hot red face and body as well but it has seemed to calm down since yesterday im taking tablets for 21 days as well as the intravenous chemo and its a pain in the backside cos i hate tabs am i over the worst for this time or is it just going to continue i cant seem to get my act together at all and of course im looking for my hair falling out now seem a bit down today and weepy probably cos im not sleeping well at all so im off to bed for a few hours havent seen much of anyone or anything since i got back from hospital nothing unusual about that cos since ive been ill and not working i never seem to see anyone anyways thats what my life was about getting up going to work and looking after the house and the kids didnt have time for much else really now im bored crapless how times change in a matter of weeks !!! (sorry!!!! ) apologies for feeling so down people would love it to be the opposite but im not feeling like the opposite at all the weather is awful dull dank and miserable just like me !!!
