Well im cross (again ) !!!
We all went to my mums today for a family bbq ,which dont get me wrong was lovely ,missed ju alot as first time ive been their since ,i have been avoiding it if im honest but i did it !
well anyway my brother walked in and first thing i noticed was his sunburn ,its the worst case of sunburn ive ever seen !! so i zipped it ,and said hello and spent some time with my gorgeous neices , until i could speak to my brothers girlfriend , well it turned out she came to find me and said sorry ,the stupid idiot refused to put cream on as wanted to burn !!! i was so upset i could have cried ,does it mean nothing to him that im a widow at 34 because of bloody skin cancer , does he want his little girls growing up with no dad !! and did i say something no as i would have cried and couldnt in front of my neices they only 1 and 3 , but i couldnt even look him in the eye , i have been struggling with him since ju died as i need him but he struggles to deal with it which i understand ,it hurts but i have to deal it ,
but this really cut like a knife :(
but once again i will deal with it and put the brave face on and pretend its all ok as thats what everyone expects , just as well i can be honest on here isnt it !
hugs to all xxx
