ive been thinking of writing a blog for ages but not sure where to start , or how , so any ideas gratefully recieved,
As of today i get to spend more precious hours with my lovely hubby, as ive changed from working 41 hrs a week to just 18 hrs subject to change when we feel necessary, people all along this sad journey have tried to tell me what to do and ive ignored them , not the well meaning ones, just the ones who think they know it all , i have trusted my instincts and have done what i feel is right, and i now feel its time for me to be at home with hubby and 3 lovely kids , i also feel i need to for me as i feel exausted, my brain is frazzled , and my heart well its breaking ,just seeing my fit ,gorgoeus hubby disappearing before my eyes, and what hurts the most is cuddling him as i cant even do that properly , used to love big squezzy hugs but they hurt him now ,somedays i can hardly touch him for causing pain , that just crushes me ,
We are now at stage of painrelief being ajusted every few days, dosage is going up and up, and hubby hates taking it but now he just does it so i know he is suffering in silence as will never complain , but that is who i married ,a lovely gentle kind man , terrific hubby and dad , i guess i should think my self very lucky not many people are lucky enough to find the one , but i was , think i best stop now before i make myself cry ..........
