well i have the biggest smile on my face ,and want to share it with you all :))))) xxxx
Ju,s dying wish was that our son would see their beloved portsmouth play in semi final of fa cup , but i tried everything except stealing but sadly to no avail ,but we had friends round here ,dinner ,lots of tears and laughter,watched it on tv ,well they only bloody won !!! ju def pulled some strings , ,well we were planning that too for the final but were trying to get tickets, no luck so day all planned ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, or so i thought, well phone rang this morning a friend had tracked down 2 tickets ,for ridiculous money and did i want them , it took no deciding obviously , so this friend is picking them up in morning and fingers and toes crossed ,for no volcanoes ect , they will be mine,
and well when luis came in (hes 11) and i told him ,his face was a picture , i almost cried , so he is going to go with ju,s dad, a treat for them both ,and i will spend the day with my girls and hopefully watch the game together with good friends, and yes i will be so sad that ju is not here to share it but i know full well he will be at wembley with his son and dad , ive got all choked up again writing that , but it feels so nice to know ive exceeded ju,s last wish ,he would be so proud of all of us, i was very low last week as you all may know, i think i was starting to feel ju wasnt with me , but i have got that feeling back ,i can almost feel him smiling at me today ,when the phone rang ,i would never have spent that amount of money on football tickets as he well knew , but what a thing for luis and his grandad to treasure in ju,s memory ,and for me to smile ,,well doesnt happen much at moment , and even though my heart is hurting dreadfully, i am grinning like a cheshire cat !!!! i just hope portsmouth can win ,if ju has anything to do with it they will thrash chelsea xxxxxxxxx
