well what a week, ups and downs, mostly downs to be honest, well yesterday was the final straw, my pregnant best friend and work collegue came for lunch bringing home made soup , lovely i thought really looking forward to a bit of me time ,well she arrived very upset, one of my so called friends and work collegue had told her my hubby only had 2 weeks to live !!!! well i hit the roof , how dare they discuss my business , especially if its not right, we may only have a few weeks but 2 weeks has never been said even to us ,let alone some busy body deciding , i decided then and their i am now not going back till afterwards , i cant be dealing with that, hubby is to important to me , but i dealt with it , she wont be talking about me again !!! i havent told him im not planning on going back yet , just said i need some time off as i cant concentrate , which is true , he doesnt want me to lose my independance , but will talk to him soon , i think deep down he knows its only because i love him and want to be here for him ,
Any way whilst this was all going on i was running around doing shopping and sorting his meds out , went to chemist and nothing their ,so went to surgery, and his dr was amazing , he was free so invited me in while he sorted meds out ,hubby was meant to be going for an appt but wasnt well enough , so he sorted that out as well, did script for more antisickness meds as thats still not under control ! and then asked me how i was! he was so lovely , i cried, and he talked and listened ,even stuff about funeral ect that i havent talked about, and the fact its very hard for me as i konw what is going to happen because of my job , im qualified to do palliative care but its very hard when its your husband , and hes so young , he didnt mention how long but he did say the next couple of weeks will be very diffucult !!! so i left feeling very sad, but glad id spoken to him ,and hes not even my dr , all meds sorted ,home to cook dinner , then as promised 7 pm dr did home visit , and also rang me this morning and will speak to me again on mon ,
Had mother in law this morning, was ok, his dad is here now , which is also ok as long as doesnt stay too long, sister in law still hasnt rung , so thats good ! apparantly my little boy was in tears at football and said it was because hes frightened, but hes off with a friend at the moment hopefully having fun as theirs not much of that here , and as for me , im just hoping the rest of the day is as peaceful and quiet as it is now , touch wood pain relief now seems to be working ,
