feeling very sad today ,

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FormerMember

30 Nov 2010

I have been dreading christmas but with the help and support from a very good friend and kids bugging me i have been getting on with it ,shoppings all done ,wrappings nearly all done , tree ordered ,decs bought i couldnt face using the old ones too many memories , all was going ok till today ,when i sat down to write christmas cards ive had to stop for a break as is just so painful and i cant stop crying and i havent felt so sad for a long time , i know this is prob *normal * and its not just not putting julians name in the cards i want to thank people for their love and support but it hurts so much , i keep thinking back to how special christmas was last year but was also very very sad for us all ,

We are all coping really well and are happy again and life does go on , but somedays it suprises me how painful this still is , and how much i so need a hug from the one person that cant give it to me ,

sorry if ive upset anyone with this blog but even i have down days sometimes , love and hugs xxx

FormerMember over 14 years ago

Oh Jenni, i know how you feel but you have been so strong and you will get through this first christmas and be proud of yourself and for Julian. I just want to hibernate but its not possible so we soldier on. I hope you feel better knowing all your mac friends are here for you, love leisha xxxxx
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FormerMember over 14 years ago

start by acknowledging your sadness and thank yourself for sharing it...

then recall a precious moment or memory and thank yourself for making such a good choice

by swapping a sad feeling for a happier one you will still feel close to him and what he brought to your life

as for family and friends when they read your cards they will have their own feelings and they will be able to choose to remember him in happier times even though his name isn't there he will be thought about as will you and your family

wrap your arms around yourself and give yourself a hug...

Warmest regards

Julia
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FormerMember over 14 years ago

Sending love and hugs xx
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FormerMember over 14 years ago

Hi Jenni - Of course you have down days it is only natural, and this is such an emotional time of year - you only have to switch on the radio or the tv to be reminded of all the previous happy times. I have decided I cant send christmas cards this year - I will be a mess if I try writing in them. Sending you hugs Jenni - take care

Clare x
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FormerMember over 14 years ago

It is always hard to lose a loved one and there will be many reminders of your loss but I say to myself that if we hadn't had good times it wouldn't be sad now. That gives me a little comfort but I know how hard it is and I send you my best wishes and much love.

Jen XX
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