Nearly a week has passed and Peter is still in the Coroners care, this means that I am not allowed to see him and he cannot be washed etc. also although I have the cause of death certificate I am unable to register his death.
When I was informed of this on Thursday at 4.30 pm by the registrar. I just leaned forward put my forehead on her desk and sobbed.
I never knew this could happen, and although the Coroner had telephoned me on Wednesday to say he had closed the file, the next day Peter was re referred because the Dr that signed the cause of death certificate had not seen him since 23rd April.
I am ashamed of my meltdown, because it is no ones fault, its just the system and the law. But tether and end nearly collided.
The bank had just informed me My bank card has been cloned and used so I had spent a considerable time going through the fraud system. I will get the money back, but of course now I do not have a bank card. It seems that I am to continue lurching from one issue to the next.
I just wanted Peters Funeral to avoid Our daughters & Grand daughters Birthdays and Fathers day is looming.
So took a deep breath and decided that Peter fought a hard battle therefore I must not falter he deserves me to stand firm with the cudgel.
Therefore I have gone ahead without the necessary forms, and arranged his funeral for Friday. The powers that be will just have to complete their paper trail in time.
This is not as foolhardy as it sounds as I have been assured that the needed certificate A has been completed and I will be able to register and get the green form and prepare Peter for his onward journey.
Our girls are fantastic, I know I am very fortunate and thank Peter for giving me these two very special young women . even in their own grief they are at my side and when they are not they phone and text constantly. Our youngest daughter has been text talking following each of BGT acts tonight xx
Today has been a poignant but happy one with much laughter and memories Our eldest daughter and her family spent the day here Our son in law worked in the garden and We have a new fence, hedge and grass cut etc he was very hot he donned a pair of Peters shorts, this was so heart warming as it is a standing joke that whenever B needs a pair of shorts he always took Peters favorites. and Peter would say " they are my favorites I must have them back by tomorrow ".
I enjoyed cooking and our Grandchildren were so happy to see that all is well here, life will go on just as they have always known it, even tho Grandad isn't here in person he is still a big part of our family and when they all went home tonight I could feel that although this is a new and difficult journey we have embarked on all will be well.
