Wake me up inside

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It’s been a week since I started my new chemo treatment and this week, I’m beyond tired 24/7. There is definitely a difference between ‘tired’ and ‘chronic fatigue’ and no amount of sleep is helping me get through it. It’s made it tough last week at work concentrating and being productive but when sleep doesn’t make me less tired, I might as well try and be awake and doing things. After the nuclear treatment I’ve had the side effects of these tablets are nothing to write home about. I feel like I’ve got constant car sickness but nothing that stops me getting on with my day and I can eat and drink fine. I have a weird tingly feeling in my toes and fingertips all of the time like a mild pins and needles so I’m constantly moisturising to try and stop the skin coming off like it did with the Doxetaxel. My toenails are still dropping off randomly and two of my fingernails have lifted, still effects from the last treatment. My tummy is not happy with anything that I eat and doesn’t stay with me for more than 30 mins after I’ve eaten but again nothing like the extreme sickness or diarrhoea I’ve had with past treatments.

I spoke too soon on my last blog and literally the next day, I had all of my Radiotherapy information and appointments through the post for this week. I have a telephone consultation with an oncologist on Thursday. As if I now have two oncologists to deal with. Then I have an appointment at the hospital on Friday to have a CT scan, be fitted for my board and get my tattoo’s done before my treatment starts the following week. I’m concerned about my seroma and the lack of contact with my breast nurses to help fix it this week. The radiotherapy information stated that treatment couldn’t go ahead if a seroma was there. I’ve called my nurses twice last Thursday and Friday and again this morning. I need to see if I need to get it drained asap this week and then what I can do if I’m having radiotherapy daily and it comes back.

I’m nervous to hear what is going to come with the radiotherapy. It looks like it’s going to run over Christmas and new year. Depending on the strength that I’m going to get, I can’t be around kids or pregnant people which means I won’t be able to see my sister for a month either. I was hoping it was going to be a quiet December with just Chemotherapy to worry about but now that it’s here at least it will be over and done with for the start of next year. Let’s see what this week holds for the next unknown journey.

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