Another one bites the dust

It’s been just over 3 weeks since my right boob faced the same fate as my left and had to leave us. I had a checkup last week and had the steri strips removed and had the wound drained. It’s all healed up very nicely so far. I had an appointment with the physio last week who was happy with my range of movement and signed me off after one appointment. One less thing to worry about.

I had my chemo pre assessment again and bloods were still not great, but they agreed to let me re start treatment last Monday. (I should have been in Tenerife that day, but sacrifices have to be made sometimes). I knew a delay in treatment was a risk when I decided to go for the surgery but then had a major freak out when I had to wait. I know a week is nothing but after my last operation by the time I started chemo again I had secondary breast cancer and it had spread to 4 places. When you have no idea what it is happening on your insides any delay makes it a long anxiety filled week. I’ve got this wound to complete then another round to do before my next scan. I’m already thinking about that and its a month away.

The chemo hit me hard at the end of last week with the fatigue being really bad. I slept for 2 days straight over Thursday and Friday. The nightmare is that no matter how much you rest and sleep, you never feel any better for it. Until today. I woke up feeling refreshed and ready to start the day. Nice timing to enjoy the weekend (in the snow).

I think from Monday I’m going to start taking more responsibility back at work. I have worked for the last year, but it has been on shorter days and with not much aim or drive. When there are no deadlines or ownership, I’ve slowly become less interested in what I do. I have always loved my job so I think working full day and with some purpose will do me good to get my brain working every day.

I’ve got a review on Monday with my Oncologist as my first 6 rounds of Capcitabine are up. I’m guessing they will just renew the scrip until scan results say otherwise. I also have an appointment next week with the trials team so I’m praying there’s some positive news from that appointment.

It’s been a year today since I found that pesky little lump in my armpit. How time flies when you’re having so much fun. I can’t even fathom how my brain has dealt with all of the information that has been thrown at it to process the last 12 months. Here’s to the start of highlighting all of my cancerversaries!

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  • Afternoon - Just over a year since I saw my GP about a lump as well. I remember when I started chemo I found your blog, you were a bit in front of me, and your tip bizarrely about ritz crackers helped me out big time! Hoping to pay it back with a work related tip. I worked throughout treatment as well. Great that you fancy taking back more responsibility, my tip is - If possible take it back one project/job at a time and see how it goes. I said I was fine, got buried, usually would have surfaced and towed the boat as usual, but it was hard going and I had to admit I was struggling. If you can - scale up gradually...! Stating the obvious but easier (on the old ego) to succeed and accelerate...One year down and hopefully many more to come (unless we are hit by a random falling piano), onward to good things and good luck on Monday.  

  • How are you doing? Any positive news from your trials team ? 

     It’s just over a year since my diagnosis and after chemo double mastectomy and radiotherapy I am clear of cancer.  I have just returned from a couple of weeks in the sun with my family and realised how much of a toll my body has taken.  what I can’t understand is why people think you will bounce back to ‘normal’ 

    sending you positive thoughts 

     

  • Thank you so much for this advise . It was much needed and as more bloody cancer obstacles got in my way, i decided to hold off taking on more which was the best thing to do. Slight smile

  • I'm so jealous you got an amazing holiday Those people are bloody nuts. I don't think I will ever feel 'recovered' lol We have been though so much it's like dealing with a serious trauma! I hope you are doing ok though. If you ever need to rant you know where I am Slight smile