my family and a few friends have been very supportive since september last year,theres been a few ppl who havnt been the best support and i feel that ive lost some of the best support i could possibly have,the only one true person who i thought i could rely on,he never really understood the "ins" and "outs" of what was really going on,started to say ive become boring...a shadow of myself....down and gloomy...what the hell am i meant to do ...get the party poppers out and balloons and shout yippeeee!!!,ive realised that before i can become strong and be positive about this i need to come to terms with it first...has anyone lost the person you loved through this????
wednesday 9th feb: im feeling a little bit better now ive got used to this site been chatting to a few ppl and i feel i little bit more positive about my forthcoming treatment,...all i need now is the most important person in my life (apart from my children) to wake up and realise whats going on and start supporting me the way he should do instead if changing the subject everytime it arises :( xx
monday 21st feburary: things have somewhat gone a little down since i last blogged,my friends list is slowly going down the pan,as for my partner,well the support there is wearing a little thin,he's there but isnt metaphorically speaking,im not sure what to do anymore i feel that im losing this battle and my main support isnt as supportive anymore.
