It's been shockingly nearly 2 months since nana passed away. It's not gotten easier yet it still raw in painful knowing that the huge part of my life has changed now she has gone. I miss her desperately and cant even begin to comprehend facing here graveside. I still want this to be some huge mistake and her to phone me saying well you won't believe what happened. I am now facing counselling that has been set up over the next few weeks as I am struggling to get through the process of grieving so the health professionals say. So today i post is it just me that is struggling to heal i keep myself busy and focus on my son to get me through but i know there is part of my life missing but i am handling it as best i can. I am picking myself up and moving on as best as i can with my life. I know its gonna hurt for a long time but for me it hurts today as much as the day it happened i miss her soo much, and what makes it harder my partner although he understands to an extent he has never lost a family member that he was close to or anyone he was close to for me loosing my nana just seems to of brought all the loss of friends an family whom i love to a head and it won't go away x
