This time last year I was planing my retirement,rudely healthy and life was good.Cancer decided to interrupt all that.So I had my nephrectomy,the consultant said they got all the cancer out and it had been there for probably two to three years.I felt so fortunate as my mum had kidney cancer but was not so fortunate.So reflecting on the past year.I have had several bouts of haematuria sometimes with infection sometimes not.My scans and other tests have been clear so I dont get that panicky feeling now when it happens you know the one "is IT back "I have retired earlier than I intended,divorced my now ex husband,and gone from a person who had not been near their GPs surgery since 2005 to one of those who seem to haunt their GPs surgery not to mention all the hospital visits.The worst thing in all this is that my brother has recently been diagnosed with kidney cancer and is awaiting his op.This all sounds a bit depressing a lot depressing really but I'm not down I think because I have always been a get on with it sort of person.Life says here's some S***e I say where's my shovel.My friends keep telling me be positive I am more like my mum who used to say "think the worst and hope for the best then your never disappointed" The bests bits have been the realisation of how wonderful my friends are,how amazing my daughters are (their mum diagnosed with cancer and their dad leaving all at the same time).I am no longer a control freak and I know what's really important to me.Im learning to drive but at present I am a danger to myself and others but will one day who knows when pass my test.My daughters arranged a birthday party for me with all my friends and I was able to thank them all for their love,support and help,it was a birthday that I thought I would'nt see.I joined this site and found or did they find me? Some very special people who have supported me through the tough times when they themselves have had far worse to cope with than me.They have made me laugh when I could barely raise a smile,they also made my bin infamous. I'm looking forward to doing the Race for Life with Ems and LM,I'll be walking there will be no running involved.So Happy New Year ?... To you all and a BIG THANK YOU Cruton xxxxxxx
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Yooo hoooo hiya Cruton.
That was such a smiley blog to read, so positive so wise and also so funny. You have made me smile from ear to ear, HAPPY NEW YEAR to you Cruton. Cheers and here's to wonderful daughters, wonderful frineds and wonderful you xxxxxxx
The only down bit was to hear about you dear brother, what a s**t that news must have been. I'm sure he's gonna kick cancers arse as much as we all do here and you'll be there putting the boot in too. Best wishes and hugs to him.
Good luck with the driving and I know you will do it 'cos you are such a determined and bloody minded soul, I can tell!!!!!
Hooray for Strong Women (and, Tim & paddyman, for Thoroughly Decent Chaps) cos not all men are as pathetic as my exhusband and yours. Mine told me he had a brain tumour so I wouldn't kick him out. He had made up symptoms after watching the tv show Six Feet Under.
Hooray for supportive daughters (I have 2 and 3 steppies).
And Biggest HOORAY for you and your positive approach.
Honk Honk, lets hope that this year is moving in the correct direction, sounds like it is so far, just keep a hold of that big shovel just incase.
Good luck with the race for life, it will be great for you to meet Ems and LM we expect lots of photo's even if it's no heads to respect all your privacy or the new tat!!!!!!
Oh dear another lunatic behind the wheel! What the hell - go for it!
I know what you mean about the shovel. I said to Mam the other day that nothing could hurt me any more than losing our Gordy so they can keep throwing the shit at me if they want to and I'll just keep on shovelling!!!
Your ex is a complete and total prick! Your daughters are amazing. And thank you PTBs for wonderful friends who stick around when the shit gets deep! Yaa boo sucks to those who run away!!!
