I'm feeling really sorry for myself and down in the dumps this week. Must be christmas, and the weather.
I feel guilty as I haven't been doing anything, but I get tummy pains when I stand too long, but would it improved if I made myself do more? Should I make myself go for a walk, or take more excercise?
We had a busy week before Christmas with the grandchildren down and since then, apart from going out to lunch Christmas day have seen no-one. What with the weather, and the colds the family don't want to come near me 'in case' and so many friends don't seem to know how to respond when you are poorly without much chance of recovery but I did manage to persuade Mick that I needed to get out of solitary confinement today, so we actually had lunch out, went for a little walk then into a shop with a SALE!! (Mick doesn't do shops/sales!). I feel shattered now, with aches and pains I don't want, but at least I know there are still other people in the area! What do I do? Should I make myself go out and risk the pains I get when walking, or should I stay in and be comfortable and see no-one? How long can it go on, it's been nearly 4 years now..... and everyone says how healthy I look, but this horrible disease won't let go -more chemo starting 10th january. What a start to a New Year!
