Tis the season

I can understand exactly how you are feeling and I am so sorry you are having to suffer this pain I have lost my family too..

(((hugs))) to you and your sister..

Love scarlet xxx

Fifi dont be sorry for how you feel, you

are missing your mum, and its the time

of year when we miss all those we loved

and lost. My mum went into hospital on a

christmas day and died a week later, my

first christmas without her was very sad

and i couldn,t eat anything because she

should have been here eating christmas

dinner with me. after a time these feelings

wont be so painful and you will start to

think of the good times you had with your

mum.I do understand that right now you

cant see beyond your misery and all  you

can think of is that your life will never be

the same again, but you are still grieving

and seeing everyone getting on with there

lives and laughing just makes you feel

worse, Fifi you have to give yourself time,

healing doesn,t happen over night, and

believe me things will get better one day,.

Your mum will always be in you and your

sisters heart and im sure she is watching

over you both as i know my mum is.

With Love Lucy Lee. xxx

i know this wont help.....but i myself have non hodgkins lymphoma......i tell my partner that IF this thing kills me then she had better make sure hse doesnt sit and feel sad .....i need her to live and laugh and smile and still enjoy the joys of life....if she doesnt then i will soooo come back and haunt her......im sure your mum loved you...of course she did.....you know, your mum sooooo wants you to be ok and she sure wants you to remember her with a smile and yes even a laugh...she doesnt want you to be sad and down and hurt....i soooo hope at christmas time , infact at all times....you will enjoy your life and the years to come just as your mum would sooo want you to.....i know my post might sound stupid.....i know it might not be of any help....the living must live for those who have gone....well thats what i will want in my case.....i hope things get beter for you if only bit by bit....my dad died on the 8th november and i say the same to my mum....my dad would not want my mum to be sad all the time.....he would not want me to be sad all the time...i will remember all the good christmas days i had thanks to my dad and i will be happy because i know he would be sooo mad if i wasnt.....anyway...all the best....hugs..

Yep, it hurts.  I see she has left you some wonderful memories of Christmas.  My mother died of cancer and my family is now just me and my sister also.  Only now I have cancer and my sis is having preventive surgery for cancer (it's OvCa).  I look and listen at others and feel the same way you do but I hear my mother 'saying things' in my ear and I feel better (I remember things she has said to us whenever we were sad while she was still with us and very ill).  Even from 'beyond' she is still with me.  Quietly listen and you will 'hear' your mother still helping you through this awful time...remember her words...xx