I'm sorry to all the innocent people out there that I give angry looks to when they are smiling or chatting to their friends, laughing. I don't need that - you don't, and will never understand me. You don't know how much it makes my blood boil that you will have a normal Christmas, you will not know what it feels like to have the one fear in your life come true - and have to live through it.
My mom has…
