Getting There

Having started the week off not knowing if I could cope with losing my hair, its ended with me bald & very happy. Within a matter of days I was loosing so much hair it was everywhere. I didn't dare touch my head & showing just became a depressing event that I dreaded. I finally decided to take the bull by the horns & take control. I had purchased a couple of lovely hats (red123 ebay) from someone recommended to me by…

Until starting this blog I'd really only shared my thoughts & fears with my husband & sister. This has been so good for me & made me face deeper fears that I wouldn't have shared with anyone. It's so helpful reading others peoples blogs & people commenting on mine, it really helps having a way to just 'download' your head. Thank you to all the people who have sent me comments, they 've really helped. Even though…

Had hair cut short at weekend as its starting to fall out. Thought it would help me get use to the idea of no hair. Am really struggling with this. Considering everything else I've been through this should be easy, but I think it's because it's so public, you can hide your scares & put on a brave face, but when you have no hair the whole world knows. I know the best thing to do would be to get a wig then people might…

Last night was the first night I've not needed pain killers to sleep.

Already I've been through so much, it doesn't quite seem possible! On 25th July I went into hospital to have my lymph nodes removed, a mastectomy, and a reconstruction. I knew it was a big operation but having the opportunity to 'get it all sorted' at once really helped me - I just wanted to come out looking as 'normal' as possible. My recovery has been slow but good, and I started chemo last week. My prognosis…