Been offline for a while, had my ups and downs and needed loads of sleep.
I have just been to visit my folks back in SA which was really great, was feeling better than I had in months. Same week I returned I had a appointment at Haematology. My BCR-ABL seems to be slowly on the rise. All my specialist said was that we may have to change treatment.
24 hours later I was in a spin, have read far too many research updates and possibilities, i do not actually know what the options are after Glivac, but hell was I scared. Did not want to freak my Mum out, so tried to keep cool and casual. But the idea of being alone and having to 'deal' with all of this is freaking me out.
Being the control freak that I am, I have got to maintain this strong exterior and have decided wisely/ not wisely not to say anything to my friends here, instead have confided in my friends abroad, which is seriousy silly, but as I have no idea what on earth is happening I really do not want to bother anyone needlessly.
Just wish I knew exactly what lies ahead, my siblings are not a match so what happens if I need a tansplant??
Scared and confused.
