well dad had his chemo last thursday and ive spent most the time worried about himand my mum.
dad is struggling to drink, eat and is generally just sat staring or sleeping - dont think it helps that he knows he cant go ack to work until his 18 weeks of chemo is over. think work was keeping him going, giving him something to distract him from the cancer.
on another note, i think its getting tougher on my mum to see him like this and be unable to help. she can tell dad to drink more, get some fresh air yet she cant forcce him haha!! i know its tough on them both and its extra tough on dad but im trying to stay strong for mum and getting her to open up and talk to me aout her feelings, as i mentioned in my last ramble its easy for the partners to get forgotten.
there were a few tears from me and mum last night whilst chatting on the phone but thats because we want to help dad but dont want to keep nagging him, its a catch22 situation.
i havent seen dad for at least a week which is hard, because of certain situations it makes seeing them difficult but he knows i think of him - i think im doing his head in with all my "the internet says dad that you should......" ut its only cos i care.
it getting a it more difficult to read folks profiles on here, seeing how upbeat they are now and how they are ale to get outside after chemo - sadly i cant see that happening for my dad, i can just see him being admitted to hospital for dehydration :-(
not a great ramble today sorry, fear ive depressed my followers hahaha - normal service with my rambles should return soon...........................i hope
hugs from this sad butterfly xxx
