Well pop had is scan a week ago now and is still very anxiously waiting for the result as we all are. Hes still sleeping alot and my nan is making herself ill with worry over what he can manage to eat. Im in a whirlwind at the moment as im rushing down to their house, rushing to work and rushing home to look after my husband and 3yr old little girl. Everything seems so frantic and the only thing that seems to be going slow is the results and treatment. When im not at my nan and pops house hes on the phone, Nan told me he thinks im some kind of specialist and know everything (which im not) but ive read up alot on his condition and im trying to reasure him constantly although half the time im looking for it myself. Now he thinks hes dying and were all hiding this from him, were not its just we have no answers to whats going on and im as frustrated as him. I didnt realise that this disease could take over your life but it has. Im constantly thinking about it and trying to find ways to beat it for my pop but im slowly realising i cant do this and hate the fact. Im so frightned of losing him and seem to be getting angry with the doctors as it seems its me thats pushing for something to be done. Its been 3 months now since he was diagnosed and theres no treatment being started and hes worried its spreading by the day till its gonna be to late. When will this all go away. People on this site are amazing people and have helped me soooo much by giving me the strength to be strong i will be eternally grateful. xx
