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FormerMember

30 Jan 2011

Well ive been keeping myself busy this last week and trying my hardest to get myself out of depression mode. Im not so sure whether going back to work has helped as i just dont seem to have any heart in it which isnt like me as i normally love my job. My work collegues have been good but when they ask about my family i just want to cry but im sure thats normal and will get better in time.

The family dont talk about pop alot and im putting it down to not wanting to get upset but the one person who does is my my 3yr old little girl who misses him alot and is keeping his memory alive, its unreal how much they take in and shes brought a smile through my tears more often this week. We walked past the local hospital where pop was for a while and she said (oh mammy i wish pop was back from heaven so he could be with nan and us) i replied so do i darling hes a big miss, ( i know he is mammy and is that why you cry and are sad alot) i said yes, ( well i love you mammy and im going to give you extra big cuddles just like pop gave us). Shes such a little star god love her and knows the right things to say which makes me so proud of her and at the age of 3 shes an insperation to me and gives me all the reasons and strength to carry on.

Nicola xx

FormerMember over 14 years ago

Hi Nicola ((hugs))

Out of the mouth of babes, never was there a truer saying! I m glad that your young daughter is a source of comfort to you, the innocence of the young is something that knows no barriers. If only everyone was as direct, it would be a lot easier for us to share our feelings. Its very difficult when people dont want to talk about our loved ones after they have gone. I have found the same, unless some-one has experienced loss themselves they often dont know how to deal with it. Your pop is with you always in your heart, and your treasured memories will be part of you forever but this is of small comfort just now, I know.

Grief is a rollercoaster of emotions, and some days seem harder to face than others. I dont think there is an easy path through grief, and nothing anyone can say will make this an easier process but this site has been my rock over the last few months. Feel free to pm me if you want to If I can be of any help. Thinking of you, love and ((hugs)) Sharonxx
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FormerMember over 14 years ago

Hi Nicola,

That is one amazing little girl you have got there and I can see that she has been brought up with a lot of Love in her wee heart. You should and I know you are very proud of her as is Pops.R.I.P.

Take care and be safe big Hugs Love Sarsfield.xx
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FormerMember over 14 years ago

Thanks sharon its a great comfort to talk to people who have been through the same and like you this site has got me through some very difficult times with some very special people who never fail to comment on my blogs with wise words and lots of comfort.

Thanks for the offer to pm you and i have a feeling i might take it up so i appreciate it. (( big hugs ))

Hi sars your words are very true she is amazing, hard work sometimes but arnt they all. Im very lucky though to have such a loving little girl and she tells me often that when shes a big girl shes gonna be a carer just like her mammy, ill be proud whatever she does.

Take good care to you both as always

Nicola xx
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