Took my pop to the hospital today to talk about chemo, We were feeling great thinking some treatment was finally gonna get started only to be told he cant have it because hes to weak. my pop, nan and me were devastated there never seems to be any good news. Thet think the cancer has spread to so off he goes for another scan. Im trying to be so strong for them both but its hard too when we keep getting knocked back. Im so frightned im going to lose him and just cant get my head round the prospect of maybe having to live life without him in it, I know im being so selfish and i hate myself for it.
