Well things seemed to be going better for pop recenty. He had started eating better, i got him to think more positive and he wasnt so down in himself plus he seemed to be alot better in himself. The new found energy wasnt to last and over the last few days he has dropped off again. He has started vomiting all his food up, has had to take the morphine they prescribed him for the pain and hes back to sleeping even more than before. So off to hospital again on monday for the much dreaded camera down which he hates so much but knows he has no choice. They seem to think the stent is rather blocked or moved AGAIN, and were still WAITING for these bloody ct results its been nearly 3 weeks and we still havent heard whether the cancer has spread or not. They wont give him chemo because they need to put weight on him but me and my nan are out of ideas, weve tried every type of food. I have even got the recipes off this site but nothing seems to work. Im sooo frightned and dont know what else i can do to help him. I look back at the big healthy man that was so full of energy, who used to hug me so tight i would have to hold my breath and now hes so frail it breaks my heart and its all happened in 3 and a half month. This disease is so cruel to the body and mind. Im trying not to feel so helpless and guilty but i think its going to be one of them days today.
