Had the worst news ever possible today. My pops cancer has now spread to the stomach and liver and if that wasnt bad enough the words WE CANT DO NOTHING ELSE came afterwards. I cant describe how i feel apart from absolutley devastated. I fought my hardest for him to beat this disease but it just wasnt good enough and whats left to fight for now....................I see the pain in his eyes reflecting from my own and where once i could say its ok pop were gonna get through this i no longer have the words of encouragement for him. The fight in me for him has gone so what do i do now, i have no answers anymore and the only thing i can think of now is how much i really cant lose him. Im the person i am today because of him hes given me so much love, support and encouragement all my life and i cant think of him not being there anymore. Im soooo selfish i know but i just dont know what to do. Ill care for him as much as i can but what if thats not good enough, he deserves so much more than what i can give him. My only wish is for him not to suffer and be in pain. Weve got the long awaited answers but what do i do now..........
