devastation

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FormerMember

22 Nov 2010

Had the worst news ever possible today. My pops cancer has now spread to the stomach and liver and if that wasnt bad enough the words WE CANT DO NOTHING ELSE came afterwards. I cant describe how i feel apart from absolutley devastated. I fought my hardest for him to beat this disease but it just wasnt good enough and whats left to fight for now....................I see the pain in his eyes reflecting from my own and where once i could say its ok pop were gonna get through this i no longer have the words of encouragement for him. The fight in me for him has gone so what do i do now, i have no answers anymore and the only thing i can think of now is how much i really cant lose him. Im the person i am today because of him hes given me so much love, support and encouragement all my life and i cant think of him not being there anymore. Im soooo selfish i know but i just dont know what to do. Ill care for him as much as i can but what if thats not good enough, he deserves so much more than what i can give him. My only wish is for him not to suffer and be in pain. Weve got the long awaited answers but what do i do now..........

FormerMember over 13 years ago

Hello nicola..... You do what we talked about on chat You be just as you are being. you cannot do anymore. My warm thoughts are with you on this journey It is because you are the person you are that you will have whatever strength you will need.Take care of you as well nicola Hugggsss Elgee
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FormerMember over 13 years ago

thanks Elgee and i cant thank you enough for your advice and support tonight at a time when i really needed it. Take care Nic xx
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FormerMember over 13 years ago

Oh Nicola, my heart goes out to you. You will find the strength to cope, as we all do, even though you might not feel that now. Just spend whatever time you can with your pops, and I hope they can keep him comfortable and pain-free. Love Val XX
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FormerMember over 13 years ago

Hi Nicola

I am really sorry that the news was bad.xx You are being all you can be just by being therexx Make the most of each day, treasure your time left with your Pops and please dont see it as a failure on either of you that the disease has spread.Nothing that anyone could do would alter that, you are not being in any way selfish. It is totally natural to feel sorry for what you will lose, but try to focus on what you have gained from having your Pops part of your life for this long. He sounds like a very special man, so make the most of the time that you have and use it to say everything that you wish to. Your Pops is lucky to have a grand-daughter who cares so muchxxx

Thinking of you, love Sharonxx
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FormerMember over 13 years ago

Thankyou to you all its amazing that what you people are going through and still find the time and energy to give very good advice and for that ill be eternally grateful.

My pop is a very special man, one that you dont come across to ofter now A TRUE GENTLEMAN. Its hard for me to think whats going to happen at the moment and im so unsure of everything apart from that i love him and will give him the best care possible, thats all i have left now.

Thankyou all for your support

Nicola xx
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