Well here goes, my name is Eric and four weeks ago I got the news that I had cancer I have been told that I have squamous cell carcinoma which in itself means nothing to me all I know is its cancer, whatever its called. Over the past weeks I have had M R I and P E T scans to find the start point as my doctors say the tumour on my neck is usually what they call a secondary cancer. The past few weeks I have experienced sadness, anger, and denial and shed quite a few tears. My family are as mixed up as me I think. Today I found myself in the garden tidying up and found myself getting upset over all the new life in the garden, new shoots on shrubs and bulbs starting to grow things I took for granted over the years but when you live under the shadow of cancer you notice different things either that or I am going soft. I go back to see my consultant on Wednesday to find out what my surgical biopsys have shown so its going to be a long week
