Saturday morning he says that he keeps going dizzy, like he's going to fall over. I said dizzy in your head he said no, his whole body like it's going to give way. We talked and he explained more and i think he is suffering with anxiety. Since his bowel diagnosis, it's been such a rollercoaster and he has coped so well and remained strong, 7 weeks on, reflecting it is a 'wow has that all really happened'. I had to have abdominal surgery in February 2010 and after a few days in hospital, I was going home and Dad said to me when you get home and reflect, you'll realise the enormity of what you've been through and I could give him the same advice back.
He then said that although he says he feels fine (never sure how honest he is being) he said that he's never going to be alright and 'normal' again. So I repeated what lovely words of wisdom I have had on this site that yes things will change but we will have a new normal and we will adapt and live with it, it doesn't mean it's going to be all bad, but different to now with lots of good times. I then walked him to the local pub (about 8 houses away literally) as he wanted to watch Liverpool play and he stayed here for a while and went to bed, so i think he was feeling better by then. Plus Liverpool won....
