Oh dear, not such a good morning...
Woke up after a very broken and restless night's sleep. Alan has got used to sleeping all morning but not at night. He can't swallow very well so has to drink and spit all the time.He gets up many many times. I think the strain of the past week hit me today. I sorted out the puppy whilst getting Alan his things and the thought came into my head that the puppy should be returned. It was all too much. I spoke to the children about it, one was ok, one cried. I said i was not going to decide on my own and it was just a thought. Of course the puppy must have sensed something because he became more deliberately cute and adorable as the day went on!
Alan and i cried a lot on and off in the morning, we realised that on Sat we will have been married for 13 years, my husbands bday is on the 13th and we live at no 13 so we had a little cry at the poignancy of that.
My son had a friend over to play and i went to the hospital to get Alan's lunchtime meds ( that were not ready last night) I just got home in time for the district nurse to give Alan his injection then i took the son's friend home, we took the pup with us and on the way we stopped in at Pets@home where i bought loads of extra things for the puppy ( probably guilt on my part!)
I have read everyone's comments about 'me' time and i do agree. I think especially as it is the end of the holidays i am absolutely shattered, as are lots of Mums out there! Im going to nip out for a bit tomorrow on my own inbetween mealtimes when Alan is napping in the morning. It's hard to fit that sort of time in, i guess you have to be strict with yourself.
Tonight Alan's friend is visiting, Alan has eaten a lot more and i am hoping that we can get more organised at home. I'm sure people can relate to bedrooms turning into a pharmacy cum hospital! Silly things like i want some plastic pockets up on the wall to organise all his equipment and things.
I do feel tired but that was the broken sleep and the relief of having Alan home. I think now i want to focus a bit on getting us all into a sort of routine that is good for everyone. Especially as the children are returning to school. The macmillan nurse did not get in touch today, we really need her now so i am hoping she will ring in the am.
