9) 5 Days Post Chemo 3 - EC

I’m so sorry you’ve hit a wall and finding it hard to cope. Don’t beat yourself up over it. You’re going through so much physically and emotionally so allow yourself to wallow in a bit of self pity as long as you can find some strategies to pick yourself up again. The Macmillan nurses are just amazing with support and advice seven days a week. A little walk in the fresh air, even in the garden, if you are able, will do wonders to lift your mood. You might even try some happy music or watching a comedy, anything that will make you smile. Just some ideas that might help. I’m going through chemo (EC-T) and still have surgery and radio to come. I’m walking at least half an hour every day and I’m sure it’s helping me cope. I wish you all the best and send you a big hug x

Thank you so much for your kind message! I hate the thoughts of anyone else going through this but it does help to know that I’m not alone.  I have already had my surgery. I had a mastectomy in August which thankfully I have recovered well from, so I know that I do have a lot to be grateful for.  Best of luck with your treatment - do you have a date for your surgery yet?

Thanks again for your lovely message xxx

Sending huge hugs. I've just experienced exactly the same on Saturday evening, was fine one minute than bang felt totally despair. Lack of sleep the night before potentially didn't help, but feeling your chemo with you. We can get through this. It's the understanding that is hard - just joined this forum as I feel its difficult to talk to those that haven't experienced it. Positivity rules and hope you are feeling more positive today. I know I feel a little bit better. 

Thank you Roadie, sorry you are going through this too - it is really crap situation to be in -  I guess we have no choice but to plough on through it.  

I have been up & down the last few days - it cycles between accepting that this is my life now for the foreseeable to grieving my old life. I also sometimes get really angry that this has happened to me, so a real mixed bag of emotions! General I am ok though and thankfully the physical side effects are ok too so that’s a bonus.  My chemo is a preventative measure but the fear of recurrence/spread is never too far away

I started this blog really as a release as I don’t want to talk too much about it in real life - as you say it is hard to talk to those who haven’t experienced it.  

I hope you are ok & that your treatment is going well.  Thanks again for your kind message xxx

I had my first chemo in September it was a full dose which I could not handle and ended up extremely Ill and kept in hospital for 2weeks, once I had recovered enough I went on to do 3 more doses at 50% which I could handle better.