I am writing this in the 6th day post chemo as on day 5 I hit a wall for the first time both physically & mentally.. I started the day feeling ok just a little tired but waves of nausea hit me like a bulldozer at about 4pm which lasted until about 7:30pm. I was fine afterwards (I wasn’t actually sick just felt awful)
Mentally though, the reality of this horrible treatment & disease hit me and I was overcome with a sense of total despair thinking that I will never recover & this is my life now & I don’t think I am strong enough to handle it :(
I slept ok last night and feel a lot better both physically & mentally today but it is still really hard. I just want my old life back & at the moment I am finding it hard to see light at the end of this long dark tunnel..
Hoping to regain a more positive outlook in the next few days.
