Starting to feel a bit apprehensive now and the realisation that I am having chemo tomorrow because the cancer is back is beginning to kick in.
Not sure if I can go on the trial yet due to protein in my urine. Always runs with protein in due to urostomy but trial criteria is strict and won't find out until tomorrow if they will allow it. One of the side effects of the trial drug can be protein in your urine. The lovely trial CNS is fighting my corner so we will just have to wait and see. No certainty that even if I am accepted I will be one of the 50% that gets the trial drug so in the words of Doris Day 'Que Sera Sera"!!
I have decided to name this part of my cancer battle operation seek and destroy. I do so hope that the chemo manages to do a magnificent job. The alternative is far too scary to even contemplate and I don't want to fill my head with that possibility only positive thoughts.
To anyone else starting treatment tomorrow and to those still battling, good luck.
xxx
