Fed up!

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FormerMember

11 Dec 2010

I feel so so fed up this evening.

My husband has been saying all day that I have been cruising for a fight and I of course have said that I have not! Well, looking back on today I guess I must have been sub consciously and now we have had an argument and he has gone to bed at 7pm and I have just spent 30 mins sobbing!.Arghhh

I am so fed up with cancer. I don't want to have it any more. I want to be like everyone else I have seen today, happy and looking forward to Christmas without the worry of biopsies, results and operations. I feel frustrated because I cannot control this thing and make it go away and sometimes I feel like I cannot breathe, if this normal?

Since my last post, until today I have been really positive but today I cannot shake it. My husband is fab and he is going through it too, I know and I also know I am being unreasonable, what can I do to put this right? He is so understanding and I feel so bad.

FormerMember over 14 years ago

I'm just at the beginning of the journey and managed to have a fight with my 14-yr-old this evening. As it happens what has been bothering me most wasn't actually to do with the cancer but of course my poor daughter got all in a tizz because we had fought and then she felt guilty at upsetting me, I felt guilty at upsetting her and there was lots of stomping off (I'm ashamed to say by me) and tears all round.

We kissed and hugged and made it up after I'd calmed down, but I still feel rotten for rowing with her. I clearly can't say what you and your husband need to do, but me and my kids, that daughter in particular, do need to cut each other a bit of slack if we're to get through this without strangling each other. I heartily recommend a big hug, and possibly a cup of tea in true British fashion. Failing that, some chocolate might do the trick.
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FormerMember over 14 years ago

Hi All,

Thank you so much for listening and for your replies. We had a lovely day yesterday and part of that was down to me being honest about how I was feeling - there is moral there I am sure!

Kabbieanne - Good luck with your biopsy result, fingers crossed.

Thanks again, it is good to know that there is someone to sound off to and who offers sound advice!!
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KateG over 14 years ago

So glad things have improved for you today. We all have our off days, don't we?

Best wishes,

KateG
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