Well it has been 6 weeks (yesterday) since I had my ileostomy reversed and currently there is not much change.
Throughout the whole of this cancer experience I have NEVER felt as low or sad as I have at times during this 6 weeks. My poor husband has had to put up with floods of frustrated tears and I have felt really low. Luckily these sessions don't last long but when they are happening it is horrible.
As a rule I tend to get on top of things and chose to be positive and deal with things well but I have been housebound for 6 weeks and can't see me getting out and about any time soon. I was told it was not going to easy but nothing could have prepared me for feeling like this.
Whilst on some days the frequency has lessened there is no rhyme or reason and if I have a good day and tell someone about it the wrath of the God of the ileostomy reversal the following day is bad, apparently he does not like boasting!!
The lowest point so far has been the delivery of nappy type pads, they are all the fashion apparently for 38 year old ladies having just had their ileostomy reversed!!
I have been told by others that things will get better and I am sure that they will.
Mine is by no means the type of experience that everyone would have, my consultant has said due to my previous bowel operation and radiation damage my reversal might not work but I selfishly needed to get this off my chest. If you are reading this ahead of having one please bear my history in mind and don't let my experience put you off.
I hope to be back on here in a few weeks showing off how well things have improved so please cross your fingers for me.
Have a lovely weekend
Lou
