I have been thinking about this since yesterday, trying to allow what grief does to people. We are all different. But please, am I expecting too much here?
I, my mother-in-law, brother-in-law, sister-in-law and my youngest son were going to the funeral home yesterday to see my husband. We still have 2ft of snow and ice up here and despite my brother-in-law having hired a car, I seem to be doing all the driving. He never even offers, despite knowing his way around, just makes a bee-line for my car and gets in the passenger seat.
Anyway, I digress, we came out of there very upset, still crying as it did not look anything like my Hans, his mouth was all wrong and one of his nostrils was compressed somehow. In a way made it easier to believe he has moved on elsewhere, because it wasn't him lying there.
Brother-in-law then asked me to drive around all the hairdressers in town to find one that could fit mother-in-law in straight away for a haircut!!!!!
Crying my eyes out and I'm driving around, trying to park in snow drifts for a damned haircut.
Is it me?
