I haven't been on in so long it's sad to see so many new "faces" and more sad to read about losses. It's been over 7 months since my Dad lost his battle and so many firsts have taken place.
Christmas and new year weren't the same, my Dad loved Christmas he was all about his grandchildren and great grandchild and enjoyed seeing them open their presents, he was a big kid too and loved waiting to see what bottle of Whisky I'd bought him :) I still have 5 of them unopened at home, We have agreed we will open one of them when I graduate from my degree (we have a few years to wait until that happens but it will happen!), the others can be opened on future special occasions that way we will always have a piece of him there!
He would have been looking down laughing at us on New Years Eve when we decided to light lanterns it was so windy we couldn't get the lighter to light the things so we moved from the beach and drove back home to light them at home! once we released then one went over the roof and landed on our neighbours roof before finally flying away. We honestly thought we had set the neighbours place on fire. It would have amused my dad and we can laugh about it now, but what a fright at the time!!
I wonder what dad would be saying almost been at Uni a year, he was so proud when I got in and I managed to pass my exams despite losing him. I think he spurred me on to work harder. I have exams coming up this week and I am sitting here in the library studying and hoping that he is looking down.
Last Month, would have been his birthday and it was a difficult month, my daughter turned 18 and i said did she want a bottle of whisky to celebrate but she said she was keeping it for her 21st Birthday so there's one bottle earmarked. I gave her a miniature to mark the occasion instead and she toasted her grandad.
It's a year ago just now that this awful disease entered out lives and took my dad so quickly. And although I am not on the site regularly I do think about you all and how you are all doing. So to those of you fighting this awful disease remain strong and to the carers, remember and take time to look after yourself too.
Thinking of you all xxx
